I have always been ambitious and worked hard to build a career I have been proud of. Although it soon became clear that my imposter syndrome took up all my energy, controlled my thoughts, my work relationships and hindered my growth potential. I knew I was stepping up in to this role and I had the capability to deliver but my imposter syndrome froze me. Do I deserve this promotion? Am I really good enough? There was a constant inner critic in my head pulling me down. I was anxious at every meeting, cried walking home and got the Sunday blues every week. My health was deteriorating, I struggled to sleep, suppressed my feelings by eating rubbish and generally didn’t feel great about myself. 

During this time my dad was struggling with his fight against cancer. I remember presenting a new concept to the board and sales team physically shaking knowing I was losing my dad. Later that week he passed away. My life flipped upside down. He was my everything, the man I looked up to, my role model, my rock. This put me in a dark place quickly and I knew something had to change.